2003-09-07 - 9:08 p.m.
i sit here
silently
in complete facination
watching everything unravel and fall apart in my hands.
pain no longer weakens me, im enlightened by it.
i should be scared in my vulnerable position,
but with destruction comes change.
i am seeing the worst of everything,
yet beauty prevails.
it may sound sick and twisted,
but i can't help but smile as i watch the dead layers of me peal back.
"ive been crawling on my belly
clearing out what could have been
ive been wollowing in my own confused insecure dellusions
for a piece to cross me over
for a world to guide me in
i wanna feel the metamorphosis and cleansing ive endured in
my shadow"
i am standing in naked wonder,
in the rain, and the wind
awestruck by the storm.
